Too much for words

Why?

2010-11-04T16:38:00.000-07:00

I feel like such a little girl
When I'm listening to the things you say,
When I read the things you write,
When you tell me the things you do.

Is it something that can keep on going like this?
Gosh, why is it so hard to find someone that can be so honest like this,
Who can really appreciate what you do for them,
Who can see how important you are in their lives.

I really feel like I'm a 15 year-old again...
Even though that is far from reality nowadays.
I wish I could have been this way when I was younger...
Oh why life is so full of I wishes and If onlys....

Don't run away from me...
You're a part of my life already.
Don't change the way you are...
Just show me that you really mean what you say.

Wish

2010-10-22T15:28:00.000-07:00

I wish I knew why
You make me feel like this.
It's something that I cannot describe,
but it's there inside of me.

I look at you,
And the only thing I wanna do is hold you,
Have you near me, care for you...
And even though I wanna do that it's impossible.

How come does these things happen to me?
I can't explain...
It's so hard to tell you the real thing....
I gotta keep it to my heart.

You are really inside my heart...
You are part of me...
And whenever you're not there anymore for me to hold...
I'll have you inside my mind.

How dare you?

2010-09-09T17:57:00.000-07:00

How dare you say you like me?
That you care for me?
That I should be the one and only...
And now don't even look at me anymore?

By doing that,
you just open up your insecurities,
your pain, your jealousy
your unhappiness...

If you were real to what you say,
you wouldn't change the way you did...
Do you dare come to my face and say the truth?
Do you dare challenge me?

I just hope you have the time
to think about the things you do...
You think you manipulate everyone, right big girl?
What if I told you there's someone who's a better manipulator than you?

How would you feel?
Would you be scared?
Maybe you wouldn't even care...
As you think you're above everyone else.

But hey, you may think you are the best...
but there's something missing inside your little head...
You may think you're smart and all...
Don't forget that there are people use other weapons baby...

Intelligence is the first one of them.

Out of nowhere

2010-07-30T18:36:00.000-07:00

You came out of nowhere
And so abruptly you got hold of my heart
Well... it's simple to say.
I can't stop thinking about you.

Everytime I imagine
That I won't be able to see you as much as I'd like to...
To be as close to you as I wish I could....
It shatters my whole fantasy.

Dancing... close or far from me...
Helping me... going up or going down...
Looking at me... telling me things with just one glance...
Smiling at me.. asking me how I'm doing...

Yeah baby, you came into my life out of the blue.
It's the best surprise I've ever had...
It's the best situation I've been into...
It's the only thing I'll never forget.

Lie to me

2010-06-04T18:23:00.000-07:00

Lie to me
Tell me i'm the one
That you can't live without
That you want to be with forever.

Keep on lying
Tell me it will be alright
Get closer to me
Tell me it was all wrong.

Lie to me
Get me under covers
Make me yours
And lie to me once again.

Let me hear those three words
That somehow keep me standing still
Even if you can't be true
Lie to me...

If I had something to offer you
Other than my heart
The reason you lie to me
Would go away.

I'm waiting on you
Lie to me
Guess what I've been doing all along?
Lying to you.

If I told you I loved you anyway
Would you cry for me?
I'd lie to you
As you did to me all this time.

I don't wanna love you

2010-06-03T15:38:00.000-07:00

I don't wanna love you...
It's not blissful enough for me
You thought I'd fall for you, didn't you?
You forgot to tell me I should do that.

You're so far from what I expected
I just feel like burning all these letters...all these feelings
That somehow I put in a dream.
A dream that will never be.

I don't wanna be unhappy
Surrounded by frustrated people
That just wanna bring me down
And make me believe in happy endings.

My world is turning around
You're just not a part of it
Is it so hard to listen that
From someone you thought that loved you in the first place?

I don't love you...
I never will...
I'm not gonna fall down.
No matter how hard they try.

Do whatever.

2010-05-17T17:09:00.000-07:00

Do whatever,
I won't beg...
Kiss other lips, run another way...
I won't complain...

I don't care if you stay or go...
As long as you tell me where you are.
I don't want to know what it really happened...
Only if you feel like telling me so.

Make me yours,
Don't make me beg...
Kiss my lips, run my way...
I won't escape...

I just feel like going around...
Opening up my heart, opening up my mind.
Tell me I can do that...
And you won't regret.

Give me a chance,
Show me it can be real.
Let me kiss your lips, and run your way.
I know it can be that way.

Mine..

2010-05-12T15:36:00.000-07:00

Think...
Presume...
Consider...
Reflect... on what it can be...

Assume that it's supposed to happen,
Believe it can be true,
See that everybody has a chance,
Understand you're becoming part of my life.

Feel...
Observe...
Appreciate...
Receive... nothing but what I've been asking from you...

Explore every bit of your intimacy,
Try to be around you as I'd love to,
Embrace you like a baby,
Have you for myself.

Glimpse...
Peek...
Gaze into my eyes...
And see that you're reflected on them everyday.

I'm not ready

2010-04-17T10:35:00.000-07:00

Why can't I tell you that I want you?

It scares me to even think of your reaction
If you would accept me,
If you would run away from me,
So I would be here just alone as I am now.

What if I tried?

Maybe I'd get you for a day,
Or even for a night.
Would it be for real?
Would it be all a game?

Do you want to know what I feel?

I feel I can get to your heart
I want to reach out to you
I wish you'd permanently be by my side...
That's what I want from you.

However,
This kind of things only happens in my dreams
And I'm not ready
To let you know yet.

In my dreams

2010-04-12T16:44:00.001-07:00

In my imagination
In my dreams
Where you show all your different colors
That's where you are

Should I try to rush or hold it back?
Why can't I stop thinking about you since that night
When you came up into my mind
And never left?

Truth is strange sometimes
And I can't help living with this contradiction
That is in front of me
I just can't let go

Should I ask or should I just wait for my turn?
I'm so afraid of this feeling
After long nights of crying against my pillow
It's here again.

Why do I always go the same way?
It's that smile that hypnotizes me
Whenever I see you...
Everyday... in my dreams... my reality

Impossible

2010-03-19T05:10:00.000-07:00

What's going on with me?
I'm scared of what I might do
If you keep coming closer to me
And telling me these things you do.

I like to be in control
I like to be the boss
That's the place I'm in
I want to live this fantasy.

That smile
Those words you say
The way you play the game
It's just so right.

Why?
Why do you have to be impossible?
Why can't I even have the chance to try?
I want to try... I want to take the risk.

You are just more than what I could dream of
You are so different from everything that I know
You see me as I want everybody to see
Why can't you have me?

I'll wait ...
Wait for the game
Wait to play
Wait to be ...

With you again.

Vain

2009-09-07T16:33:00.000-07:00

Everytime I take a look into your eyes
Every morning
When you smile at me
You mess with my mind.

I can't hide my desires anymore
You command my whole body
You make me weak, it feels so good
I just keep trying to be in control.

It's in vain
Whatever I try to do
It just shows who you are
It's so vain
The more I don't want you, the more I do

Stick around
Make my heart rush
When you call my name
My whole body trembles

Don't ever let my ego get between you and I
I admit it
Boy, you knock me down
Like a damn curse, you knock me down

It's in vain
Whatever I try to do
It just shows who you are
It's so vain
The more I don't want you, the more I do

Bring me up and knock me down again

Written by Sky Angel and Little One

Permanent

2009-07-30T18:37:00.000-07:00

We've shared the laughter,
We've shared the tears,
I've shared my pain,
You've driven me insane.

However...

It's permanent the way I've felt about you,
Since the day we met for the first time.
It makes me dream, makes me sing,
For a love that's so sublime.

I keep running around,
Feeling the rain fall on my shoulders.
It's like you are touching me...
With my tears coming down my face.

However...

It's permament the way I've loved you,
Since the moment we kissed each other for the first time.
It makes me dance, it makes me romance.
For a moment that is just so high.

After all we've been through together...
After all that we've shared and made our own,
You just have left me with all my fears and tears...
Where did you go?

But never...

It's permanent the way I've missed you,
Since the day you looked at me for the last time.
It made me smile, it made me dazed,
For a feeling that will never fade.

...

2009-07-06T10:26:00.000-07:00

Why is it so hard
To find out a solution to us?
Why do I just want to sleep
And wake up when this all ends.

I can't see the light at the end of this tunnel...
This pain is never over,
but my life ...
is almost there.

I don't know what to do anymore,
I don't know where to run to,
I don't have any other expectations
Other than simply cry.

Sit down or stand up and run away?
Stand still or get moving?
What am I supposed to do with this?
God help me ...

Take this anguish out of my chest
I wanna break free from this place I'm in...
When will I be able to do so?
Only You know...

Run away

2009-05-24T16:58:00.000-07:00

Don't waste my time
Anymore
Why should I chase
Instead of waiting on you?

You bring me up
You throw me down
Take me in
Take me out
Call my name and let me know
Before I run away.

I gotta run every way
Climb every mountain
To see where it ends
For you and for me.

You bring me up
You throw me down
Take me in
Take me out
Call my name and let me know
Before I run away.

If I could be in your shoes
You'd see where I'd go
And what I would do
Realize I'm not meant for you.

You brought me up
You threw me down
Took me in
Took me out

You called my name
Finally it was too late
Cause I made up my mind
And ran away.

Be my baby

2009-05-23T17:27:00.001-07:00

You play me by a fool
But I'm still in love with you
This feeling is killing me
Who are you to make me feel like this?

Why do I have to hide that I love you
You know it so well
Don't keep me into the darkest skies
Bring me into the light, like a sunny day

Why should I feel like
Feel like falling
Falling for your love baby
Be my, be my, be my baby

Living on the edge
Crying out for your name
Searching for you all night long
Why do you keep hiding on the other side?

Even when you walk on by
And I can only hear the sound of your voice
I should keep on imagining ...

Why should I feel like
Feel like falling
Falling for your love baby
Be my, be my, be my baby

After all,
You still make me feel
Totally crazy for you.

I'm not happy anymore.

2009-04-06T16:25:00.000-07:00

I'm not happy anymore.
That sparkle I had is long gone.
I don't want to be something I'm not.
I'm not happy anymore.

The reason I had to believe has disappeared,
Since it doesn't matter what I do...
How long I'm commited...
How much I show you that I care.

I am just going to start listening to myself
And move on soon...
It's not a part of me.
It's just not myself anymore.

I'm not happy anymore
And there's nothing I can do about it...
There's so much to show...
And so nothing to get back.

You can have it your way...
But...
I'm not happy anymore.

Where did we go wrong?

2009-04-01T16:56:00.000-07:00

Where did we go wrong?
What happened to both you and me...
Whenever we were together it's just so special...
What happened to both you and me?

How long will you remember me for?
Only for a single night ... till the tears stop falling
From my eyes... my heart burning inside...
Where did we go wrong?

I don't know for how long I'll be able to live
by this memory I keep inside my mind...
Everything is as frozen as it used to be.
Stop me from falling into my own mistakes.

Feel me, grab me, break me...
Kiss me, ignore me, take a look into my eyes...
Don't leave me little by little,
Don't go around in circles as you always do.

Give me new life, breathe into me...
Run under my skin, keep me standing still...
Crawl to me... tell me anything...
I'm a shadow of what I used to be... where did we go wrong?

Insistir...

2009-03-15T16:34:00.000-07:00

Insistir em tentar... é ao mesmo tempo insistir em esquecer.

Esquecer que eu vivi de certa forma pensando no que seria de mim com você...
Você, que está dentro de mim... que faz meu ar se esvair toda vez que penso no que seria...

Seria... sim... talvez não porque eu queira, mas porque está destinado a ser assim.
Eu? Para que levar minha própria vida em consideração... quando me preocupo muito mais com tudo ao meu redor do que comigo mesma...

Minha vida está parada. Apenas esperando algo de magnífico acontecer e me tirar desta loucura que envolve meus pensamentos.

Pensamentos que refletem a ilusão de um dia ter você como eu realmente quero.

Não por um dia...
Não por uma noite...
Nem por um fim de semana.

Eu quero você pra minha vida toda.

Não somos nós... nem eu e você.

Somos apenas...

Eu!
.
.
.
E
.
.
.
Você!

Minha vida não pertence a tua, e nem a tua pertence a minha...
Somos dois estranhos que compartilhamos um sentimento insano e algo mais profundo que nenhum dos dois ainda ousou descobrir.

Junto ou sem você

2009-03-08T16:43:00.000-07:00

Você anda ... eu corro pela rua... pensando como seria se ela realmente existisse.Como se ela não fosse apenas um fruto dessa mente insana que não deixa de pensar em você.....

A chuva não consegue te molhar, afinal de contas, eu te protejo contra qualquer perigo que possa lhe cercar.Suas lágrimas não passam de memórias minhas? E todas as noites que eu passei em claro, decidindo o que fazer, deixando minha voz calar, cada lágrima dessa não tem valor algum?EU ME PERMITO TODAS AS MEMÓRIAS QUE TEMOS! Por certo elas de algo valeram... para crescer ou para sonhar... elas ainda fazem parte de mim....

Você me entregou suas emoções... são muito mais do que meros sorrisos. E valem muito mais...Pena que só para mim...

Sim? Não?

Como você tem coragem de dizer que graças a mim nada aconteceu ou acontecerá? Um sim, um não, um nunca... uma demora...Uma espera sem sentido... sem razão de existir..

Tudo tem uma primeira, uma segunda, uma terceira vez de existir... será que estou certa em seguir por esse caminho?

Entregue-me não apenas suas emoções... entregue-me sua essência... seu encanto. A minha ainda possuo, apenas não sei em que cantinho do meu coração isso se encontra....

Obrigada por todos os momentos que você me permitiu sorrir, e também pelos momentos que me permitiu chorar... sozinha... para lavar minha alma.Você quer ter minhas lágrimas? Apenas pegue meu coração, faça-me sentir feliz...As lágrimas virão.

Naturalmente... mas pelo sentido verdadeiro.

A felicidade de ser...

Eu mesma.

Junto ou sem você.

Rely on...

2009-03-07T15:37:00.000-08:00

I can only rely on my tears
They're the only ones that maybe can console me
From feeling so unable to react
From feeling so out of control.

I cry my eyes out
And I can't seem to understand
Why should I feel like that
When nothing - absolutely nothing is my fault.

I just feel so guilty
I feel like I could have done more
I know that should, would, could are the words of a fool
But those are the only words I can cling to.

If I have no support
What will it be of me
Are these words really meaningful
Or do they just come back empty?

All I can do is work it out
Show the best I ever can do
And send all this haste and bitterness
To the fucking hell!

Time goes by...

2009-03-03T15:53:00.000-08:00

I want it to happen...
Fast enough...
But it seems that the faster I want it to be...
The longer it takes.

I want you to know
It doesn't matter
How long it takes
I'll make you feel better than you've ever felt.

Call me confident,
Call me crazy,
But if I can't have you,
There's no other way around for me.

Time goes by...
Sometimes slower than I wish it would...
But time will run ... so much...
That I'll have your lips between mine.

Sooner than you think,
I'll just taste the sweetness of your kisses
And without hesitation,
You'll save me from my own senses...

I'm just ready for you...
Lift my spirits higher,
Take me into your arms,
And just make me incapable of escaping of you.

Anymore...

2009-02-27T16:28:00.000-08:00

I'm sick and tired of believing I know you
It's as if I'm incapable of understanding deep inside your eyes
What is that you are feeling
What is the reason you make me through so much pain inside

I'm tired of your attitude
About never really showing what you want
I'm tired of your words
Telling me everyday the same damn thing

You don't have to say anything to me
Don't take the phone, don't write to me...
Simply ignore me as if I didn't exist.
It's easier for you... it's easier for me.

I'll just drive along the road
With the radio on...
Trying to forget every single moment we spent together
Every moment we shared...

You say you wanna see me smiling,
How is that possible when everything you do is to see me cry.

I can't handle it anymore...
It's too much for me...
And I believe, it's nothing at all to you...
Anymore...

Jealousy

2009-02-03T15:31:00.000-08:00

After having you for so long,
Seeing you go with another one,
But not me is so hard...

How will I deal with that?

How can I handle this feeling that is taking over my heart...
When I see you laughing with her, talking to her, caring for her...
And forgetting that I'm here...
That I've been here all this time...
That I was yours.

Will you let me go forever?
Or will you keep thinking about me even if it's as a distant love you had once in your life?

Inside my heart, you'll be there...
I'll keep the good memories within...
Thinking about everything we went through...
Even if the jealousy consumes me,
It's gonna be unbearable and impossible to ever erase what you've been to me.

Resist you...

2008-12-21T15:01:00.000-08:00

I am so deeply involved
I'm so in love with you...
Even though I don't know what goes on
Inside your heart and your mind.

I can't fight anymore against that...
My feelings are stronger than me
I do love you,
But I don't want to cry for you.

Sometimes, I think you are the one...
Heaven is a witness of our life together.
I cry alone inside,
But the pleasure I get is worth every risk.

When I see you smiling,
I get weak on the knees.
I just want to get down
And get lost into my thoughts.

I can try to resist you,
You can try to resist me
I know I can't do it
I got to spend my nights with you.

You can hide yourself from me,
but I'll find you.
It doesn't matter where you are,
or the path I have to run to.

Deep inside my soul
I know I can't get you out of my life
So I just ask you to come to me
And tell me you feel the same way I do.

Screaming out ... with no voice at all

2008-11-27T15:03:00.000-08:00

Don't ask me what to do
My mind is too closed to even think about an answer
I don't know what else to consider
Even when I'm alone in the dark.

I cry ... yes... I do that,
Specially when I'm lying on my bed,
Hanging myself to my pillow
And to the pain that consumes my soul.

Lifeless dreams come by at night
And I just want you to control me
Take me out of this emptiness
Talk to me... let me free my voice...

I'm just caught into a trap
That you've built up for me
Why do you want me as your slave
As the one you wish you could have forever.

Let me scream to the world I'm free...
Just don't look me in the eyes
Cause everything gets meaningless to me
But the fact that you exist in my own very life.

I'm screaming out loud
With no voice and no power at all...
It's all because of you
That bubbles me in and never lets me out.

Let me be me...

2008-11-02T14:15:00.000-08:00

Yeah, I'm confused...
And I do sometimes feel like I wanna throw it all out,
Scream at the world...
Everything that I feel inside my heart.

Why don't you make things any easier for me
And let me be me...
With you, it's the only possibility I have
To show my true personality.

I don't wanna change,
Be people-pleaser...
It's like a burden I have to carry
Everyday you don't let me surrender to you.

Lately, I'm feeling crushed
I've been searching myself inside you...
Anywhere I can find a clue,
There's where I'm gonna stay.

Look at me...
Don't wait for me to yell at you...
Shout... scream...
I want the whole world to see me.

Next to you...
Far from you maybe?
You are the only one that has to decide it...
Where should I go... or who should I be...

Let me be who I wanna be...

Warning!

2008-11-01T14:01:00.000-07:00

Warning

Don't let anybody kiss your lips

It may become addictive.

This has happened to me

And I can't stop thinking

About your lips kissing me...

When will it happen again?

Only God knows that...

But I can't stop wondering...

About the day it will be.

I don't know

2008-10-26T08:51:00.000-07:00

I'm thinking...
And the more I do that,
The less I understand
What goes on inside my head.

It keeps spinning round and round
I get so confused...
Should I give you all the credit you deserve
Or should I just move on and live on my own.

You dominate my heart
And I can't say no to you...
Even if you mistreat me
And misunderstand me each and every time we're together.

I have to be strong
And leave you behind...
Even if it makes me cry,
Even if it tears me apart.

If I keep on going like that,
I don't know what may happen to me
To you... to us...
So, I guess it's better that...
I forget you... before it's too late.

You and I

2008-10-24T14:19:00.000-07:00

Your smile soothes my soul
Your love makes my spirit run free
Your eyes show me the truth
It opens up a world in front of me.

If I could wish
For anything at all
That would be...
Don't ever run away from me.

Don't deprive me from your kisses
They just fill my body with joy,
With tenderness, with desire for more...
Even more... what is yet to come?

Deep inside I know
It's not easy to understand
Everything that goes on
When I'm next to you.

Just let me try to show you
It's not as crazy as it sounds...
Yes!

You ...
I ...
The world ...
And whoever is there to witness will see...

What will they see?

It depends on these two people... You and I.

Leave me on standby...

2008-10-19T15:57:00.000-07:00

What do you think about
Leaving me on standby?
Having me anytime you want...
Don't let me choose it.

What do you think about that?
When I get tired I'm not coming back
And it will be only your hand
To entertain you...

Don't let me cry...
Show me how I should not cry.
Standby on weekends...
Standby on weekdays.

I'm always last in your "To-Do" list
Switch everything on
Switch me off...
Maybe out of your life.
Forever.

You'll only be able to think about me
When you're alone in your bed.
I won't cry for you never again.

If you ever cry for me,
Think about the mondays and tuesdays...
Every single day you said no
And told me I had to go.

Standby for you...
Standby for everybody else.
If you can't have me whenever I want,
I can have anybody else at the time I need...

Anybody but you.

Who are you?

2008-10-14T16:31:00.000-07:00

Who are you?
Who drives me insane...
Who makes me wonder...
Who's out of my imagination...

Never will I get to know your name
Or ever see your face
Only if you finally show up
And tell me whatever I want to listen to...

Why do you do that to me?
Why do I have to concentrate?
Even though it's something that instigates me
I got to move on...

It simply suffocates me
Not knowing anything about you
How old you might be
What your name may be...

Are you somebody
Or just anybody?
It's part of your job now
To make me understand that...

Who are you?

Only time will tell...

Hate and Love... Love and hate... what's that anyway?

2008-10-11T16:30:00.001-07:00

I hate your insecurities
But at the same time I love the way you talk to me
I hate the fact that you run away from everything
But I desperately need you by my side everyday.

I love your eyes
But I hate when you don't look at me
I love when you kiss me
But why don't you do it more often?

I hate when we are alone and you change the subject
But I love when you smile at me
I hate when you tell me you're not ready
Do you think I am ready for you?

I love your hair
I've told you more than a hundred times...
I hate when you think you know more than I do
But at the same time I love when you ask me what to do

I hate that I love you...
I love to hate you...
I am so grateful that I know you
Just don't make me hate you more than you make me love you.

I always look at you...

2008-10-09T15:49:00.000-07:00

I always look at you,
And now I know why...

It's because you inspire me to dream
Inspire me to imagine
What may ever come true someday.

When you look at me,
I get restless,
You leave me breathless,
I just can't react.

When I look at you,
I see through your soul,
I can feel what you feel
Even though you don't have a clue.

You look at me,
But you say no words,
It's a kind of love that is pure,
Straight from the heart.

Although I don't even know who you really are
You are, yet, a part of me
That has made me surrender...

Now I know why...

It's senseless...

It's illogical...

And it makes me stop, and think of you.

Here saying nothing...

2008-10-06T16:22:00.000-07:00

Once in a different morning
I woke up into reality
Didn't even think if what you said was true
What you felt wasn't what I felt
That was my big mistake
Sad but true
That I can't talk to you

I'm here saying nothing
Here doing nothing
I'm here writing nothing
I haven't moved
I'm here saying nothing
Here dreaming nothing
I'm here singing nothing
Got nothing to show
And it doesn't matter what you do
I'll turn the other way

Take a little time
Find out I wasn't that bad
I probably was high to give attention to what you were saying
I know how well you planned that inside
You are just living a lie and pretending again
Funny but it's true
I still love you

I'm here saying nothing
Here doing nothing
I'm here writing nothing
Since when you went away
I'm here saying nothing
Here dreaming nothing
I'm here singing nothing
Got nothing else to show
And it doesn't matter where you go
I'll go the other way.

Sexy Handsome Boy

2008-10-05T11:00:00.000-07:00

Maybe someday,
Perhaps you'll show me
What you mean
If you have a clue of what you do.

You like her and at the same time
You want me as well
In front of me you show me something
Behind my back you're somebody else.

Double-faced
No personality at all
Show me who you are
Don't pretend ... just be
The sexy handsome boy you are.

I can't help not to be
attracted to you
You do me no much better
Than what I have seen.

I can't let you go,
You turn me upside down.

Don't try to change me
'Cause I don't know where we're heading
Bring me back to reality
Where I know what I can be.

Double-faced
No personality at all
Show me who you are
Don't pretend ... just be
The sexy handsome boy you are.

Perhaps, you have shown me
Maybe I didn't wanna see
You got me going crazy
I just think about it.

You're mine
And everybody else's
I don't care anymore
Just need you boy.

... Into the light

2008-10-03T16:21:00.000-07:00

I chased for troubles,
Something that hurt me too fast,
My broken heart has been bleeding,
From the pain you brought into my soul.

The storms have come and gone,
And I always wanted to find someone to blame.
It was a shame, because I never saw that
You would never dry the tears from my eyes.

I wanted to wash away all that I cried,
I was begging for help,
because I am used to have everything my way,
when I finally saw I was alone.

I spent my precious time,
With this foolish obsession,
This lonely temptation,
That closed my eyes for reality.

I was insane for your touch,
For believing I could be by your side,
Finally... I was able to recognize,
My love for you was just a part I played.

I felt my breath,
Every shade of color turned into blue,
I could look into the sky,
And see the light of a sunny day.

I promise to myself,
I'll see the real beauty
That a person has within,
Before everything goes down again.

You are still everywhere I am,
You keep looking at me at that special way,
But my heart tells me now...

I need to be here, but you can be there...
Far away from me.

Why does this happen to me?

2008-10-02T16:27:00.000-07:00

Do you know how it's like
To be totally alone?
Are you able to understand
What I'm trying to explain?

It's hard to figure out why
These things happen to me
They happen for a simple reason...
Because you have broken all my hopes and dreams.

I don't expect anything from you
I don't want to be by your side anymore
I have to go my own way
And forget about passive love around me.

I'm going to be selfish
And think only about myself
To take away the pain
Make it run away from my heart.

Sometimes,
We don't understand why
Things doesn't happen the way we want ...
But,

I'm going to find what I'm looking for,
Try to get over you
Because lately you're the only thing
That runs through my veins.

All over again

2008-09-26T17:45:00.000-07:00

What is this feeling
Rushing over my body
With no explanation
And no sense at all?

You were already mine
But you went away
Can't my heart understand
That there is no way?

Everytime I get next to you
It seems like it's not supposed to end
It feels so good inside of me
Why does this have to be?

I'm so blind,
so stupid, so ridiculous...
It's not enough what I've been through
Do you want any more of that?

I can't explain...
I can't have a rerun...
I can't tell you
How much I want you again.

I want to feel your body next to mine
I want to feel your kisses against my lips
Yeah, it's only been once
But God knows how I want it back.

Even if I could tell you,
I don't know what would it be
You could finally read this...

Read my mind...

Read my heart...

See how much I need you right now?
All over again?

Just ask...

2008-09-25T11:00:00.000-07:00

I just ask you to accept me
The way I am
With the flaws I have
With my inner fears and insecurities.

I can love you
With my body and soul
But I gotta have your arms around me
To keep me growing strong.

I love each day I'm able to
Be next to you
Hear your voice
See you smiling.

I ask of you
Give me a chance
To show you my love
And make you feel loved.

I want you to call me
And tell me you need me
As much as I do too
It's time... to let it happen...

It's not time... to let it go...

I can't let you go
Don't lie to me
I can't wait another second
I have to know it right now.

Will you accept me?
Am I only dreaming?
You are the one to tell me
After all this questions...

If my deepest desires...

Will finally come true.

The last chapter of a love story

2008-09-20T16:50:00.000-07:00

I pretend that I don't see
Everything you do to me
Because I don't want to get hurt
And I don't want my heart to be broken.

Everybody tells me
That I should give up on you
That you're not good enough for me
That I deserve much better than you.

However, you are
An addiction to my heart
I wish I could just let you go
And live in peace.

Why do you do this to me
Why do you make my cry
Don't you know my heart
Lives only for you and no one else?

You don't think about what you do
You forget you are the wrong one
Everyday you break my heart
But you forget that you are inside of it.

When I finally see what's better
I know I'll change for good
And when you realize what you did
I'm so sorry, but it will be too late.

My answer to you...

2008-09-20T16:35:00.000-07:00

Who do you think you are

To act that way

To think that you can

Throw whatever you want onto my face.

I won't let you do that

'Cause you mean nothing to me

You're just another anybody

One of those people you try desperately to forget.

If I could, I'd never look into your face...

I just have to do it

Because I gotta be a pro...

Not because I'm still into you.

You are meaningless...

We don't even know each other properly

And you think you have the right

To say and do everything you do in front of me.

Go back to your position

Pretend I don't exist

I do what I want to do

And whatever I think you deserve.

I can laugh at you, because I want it

I can make you fall, because I like it

I can break you down, because I feel like doing it

I can do anything, because I know who I am.

You still don't mean a thing to me

But I want you to realize that

I can't stand you any longer

And this is my answer to you.

Forbidden love...

2008-09-19T17:09:00.001-07:00

Forbidden love,
I wish we could be together,
I wish we were alike,
I wish we were from the same world.

You are forbidden to me,
but anyway, I want to have you,
I desire you,
I need you.

Although I can't understand you sometimes,
You make me love you
You make me despise you
You make me hate you at the same time I want to feel you.

I try to live my life
And put you behind
I can't...
It's just stronger than me.

Forbidden sometimes is even better...
However, not to me.
I want to feel true love,
Discover the real meaning behind it.

You're so different from everything I could've expected,
You got me trapped by your charm,
I'll never be able to spend my life with you,
but you'll always be a part of me.

I lie to myself,
Saying I don't feel the way I do,
You can't imagine how I do...
But now, nothing else can come out of me anymore.

Angel from above

2008-09-19T17:04:00.000-07:00

Not long ago, we both took a chance,
Bbut everything changed in a glance,
One second you were there, the next you were gone
And I'll never stop feeling alone from now on.
I'm glad you told me, how you felt back then
Or else we would've never had this romance.
I wish you were here with me
Cheering on me, believing in this
But you're not here
And I'm all alone.
You are my angel who's watching from above
Life is not fair, I know that right now
You never deserved to end up this way
You're in my heart and that's where you'll be
Forever and ever, you'll never leave.
I loved you more than life itself
So why am I here and you're up above?
I blame myself over and over for this,
I think I could've done something
To stop you from going, to keep you here.
But now it's too late, to think about that.
I just want you to know, I think about you
Everyday of my life since that day.
Our love is eternal, so it's not the end.
We'll be together again one day.
Where there's no pain, no sorrow.
Just warm love and joy.

I promise...

2008-09-13T17:14:00.000-07:00

I promise that I'll always be with you
I promise that as long as I live I'll love you
I promise the sky is not the end
And we can go much further than that.
I promise we'll never get lost in the crowd
I promise you'll cry no more
I promise I'll never break your heart
And both of us together are the answer to everything.
I promise if we believe nothing is impossible
I promise time will not be a problem
I promise we'll make this world even better
And change who pulls us under.
I promise I'll turn to you
I promise I'll not fall
I promise my life to you
Stronger than ever, together forever.

Me

2008-09-13T17:03:00.000-07:00

I'm so lonely
in this big wide room.
I don't know how to act,
I don't know what to say.

I am all by myself
Nobody cares about me.
I gotta be strong
To keep on breathing.

Maybe I can be crazy,
but this is a real thing.
I'm alone,
In this cruel, empty world.

Nobody believes me,
I can't be free.
Everybody thinks I'm just
Anybody in the middle of this complete mess.

I say I have a heart.
I need to be loved.
Maybe you don't love me now,
But why can't you try?

Wherever you are...

2008-09-07T16:30:00.001-07:00

Wherever you are, listen to my voice...
I'm screaming for love and yelling to the world to find somebody that makes me what I am.
Even if I can't have you, If I don't know you still...
I know you're somewhere waiting for me as I am for you.

Love is so complicated, and I don't understand why my heart has to cry for somebody that doesn't deserve it.
Even though I'm living my life, I just think about the moment it's you and me...
And nobody else to break us apart.

I can't break down now. I have to pick up the pieces from my heart.
Stop crying over a picture that will never come back.
Never have I wanted to feel what I'm feeling... I don't know what it is...
Somebody help me to figure it out.

God, listen to my claim... bring him to me
Wherever he is, whoever he is.

I'm so torn by the past, disappointed with life... so many shattered illusions,
Just made my whole life fail.

Above everything, just think of what it is to come... think about me
The way I dream about you.

No person has made me smile, or love as much as you did. The way I have fallen for you...
I just can't understand.

Wherever you are...
Take my hand...
Take me to your world...
Wherever you are.

What should I do?

2008-09-07T16:22:00.000-07:00

When you look into my eyes
I feel like I could fly
You can see my bare soul
You can see me through
I am whatever you want
But I don't know what
You want from me
I keep asking myself
What am I doing to you?

What should I do?
Not to lose your love
What should I do?
To live by your side
Should I remind myself of your love
And be alone... what should I do?
Where should I go?

When the night comes around
I feel like I can shine
Living by your true love
You give me different life
What should I be to you now?
Should I be me or somebody else?

What should I do?
Not to lose your love
What should I do?
To live by your side
Should I remind myself of your love
And be alone... what should I do?
Where should I go?

I can't live without you
Should I be me or somebody else?
Tell me whatever you want
So many questions, I don't know what to do
Baby come to me, love me
Just the way you know how to do.

One-sided love

2008-09-02T17:34:00.000-07:00

It's so easy,
So comfortable, so amazing
The way you made me feel
When you were around me.

I didn't have to hide from anyone
That you were special to me
And the fact that you still shine in my life
Whenever I'm not Ok.

Since the day I found out
That you were part of me
I couldn't live, I couldn't speak
I couldn't think, if it was not about you.

You were not only the music in me,
You were the soul, the spirit,
The shelter through the storm.

Even though we were together
For such little time,
It made me see
The beauty behind your smile.

I hoped that you would see
I was the only one supposed to be with you.
It would be as I had planned.

However, one-sided love doesn't work
And now I'm here, writing these words,
while you are out there...
Loving somebody else.

Somebody to love

2008-08-28T16:30:00.000-07:00

I want somebody to love...
Find someone who wants me...
Who needs me...
Who takes me by the hand and guide me.

I just can't stop thinking anymore
About this poisoning feeling I have got
Where I just have no life
Apart from this unhealing necessity.

Where are you?
Are you on this Earth or have you moved to Mars?
How hard is it to find you?
This person to love.

I can't just let it go anymore.
I can't live a lie.
I gotta find somebody to love.
Can you help me get through this?

I absolutely don't have a clue
What to do
Where and who to be.

I need you here
I want you here
Is there somebody out there for me
Or is only a fairy tale?

Save me tonight

2008-08-24T11:40:00.000-07:00

Save me tonight,
From the day I don't know,
From the things I'll go through,
Please, save me from this moment.

I just wanna know,
If I'll find you someday,
If you'll be waiting for me,
As I am for you.

I'm afraid to go on,
So save me tonight
So I can sleep deeply
And think of you.

I wanna start all over again
It's so hard to be here alone
Help me once again
To live through heaven and hell
Without you here.

Save my life,
Save my soul,
Save my all,
Save me tonight.

Dude, somebody stole my yogurt

2008-08-20T16:46:00.000-07:00

Some fucking idiot stole my yogurt...
My pineapple yogurt!
What if there was nothing else to drink?
What if it was meant to be given away?

I just want to know who was the bastard that did it,
Maybe I can find out more about the selfishness inside this person
Is it so hard to ask for it?
Is it so difficult to live without it?

I want my pineapple yogurt
So I don't pass out because of my hypoglicemia
I just wanna know who did it
Is it so much to ask for?

Then, they want to be claimed as educators
As people that think they teach
Before they can't see their own concept of education
We can see where this country is going to!

Fly away

2008-08-18T17:00:00.000-07:00

Lord it's so hard
To go through this life
So many obstacles
To be overcome.

I don't think I'll ever be
The same I've been before
'Cause my mind is stronger
My skin is tougher.

How is it to believe
At the same time
Everything will be alright
But I'll never have you again.

I know it's for the best
But the reason, I'll never know
I wish I could predict the future
Everyday from now on.

I'm guilty inside my heart
Inside my soul
Inside my brain
I'm just trapped inside of myself.

Help me to breakaway
I'm just trouble, just confusion
Let me fly away
Let me break free.

Maybe after that
I'll be able to live my life,

Even though we are apart
Even though we are far
Even though you're away.

Far away

2008-08-17T10:45:00.000-07:00

I woke up this morning
With a different sensation
Can it be love calling?

I don't want to know it anymore
I just want you far away from me.

I wanna be the one and only
who makes you crawl
who makes you come back
whenever I call.

I don't want to know it anymore
I just want you far away from me.

Don't let me go
Sentimental loneliness
Thrilling superiority
Just let me go.

I can't be here
I don't want to be here
I just want to be alone
What's the deal with that?

Better find me an explanation
I feel somebody over here
It must be you again.

Are you back to apologize?

I woke up this morning
Feeling you so near me
I don't need an explanation.

I don't want you anymore
I just want you far away from me.

But I guess I need to know
Even though you are too far away from me
Everything's OK
I just want you far away from me.

One

2008-08-17T08:35:00.000-07:00

If only you could read me...
I have plenty for you to read, to touch, to do...
You could start writing my story...
Write on my body...
Turn me into a woman...

What's the problem on feeling like this...
On wanting you like this...
On desiring your body like this...

That's what I want...

I want you to have your hands on me ...
Give me again the soul I've lost...
Somewhere in time...

Watch me move...
Look into my eyes...
Bare my soul...
Get one on one with me...

I'm not gonna say anything else...
Do what you gotta do...
But DO something...
Before it's too late.

Let me be in your hands

2008-08-16T18:52:00.000-07:00

I play with my loneliness
I cannot be alone anymore
Though inside my heart I feel
You want to see me like that.

It is so hard looking at you,
Without kissing you,
Without having you by my side,
Without being wrapped up in your arms.

My sorrow is consuming me,
Why can't you see that
I try to be so strong
But inside all I can do is cry.

Let me look you in the eyes
And read beyond your soul
Can't you see that I want you
And no-one else?

You cannot realize that
your place is safe in my heart
Nobody has ever been there
And will ever be while you're there.

Sometimes you're so out of reach,
At the same time so close to me.
Why is it so hard
To say everything I feel.

My days pass by too fast,
My time is fading away,
I can't change anymore
And leave you behind.

When I'm not around you,
I just don't know what to do
Who to be
Where to stop.

Don't let my tears fall through your hand
Don't let my life escape forever
Leave me where I can be me
Let me be with you