I'm not ready

Why can't I tell you that I want you?

It scares me to even think of your reaction
If you would accept me,
If you would run away from me,
So I would be here just alone as I am now.

What if I tried?

Maybe I'd get you for a day,
Or even for a night.
Would it be for real?
Would it be all a game?

Do you want to know what I feel?

I feel I can get to your heart
I want to reach out to you
I wish you'd permanently be by my side...
That's what I want from you.

However,
This kind of things only happens in my dreams
And I'm not ready
To let you know yet.

In my dreams

In my imagination
In my dreams
Where you show all your different colors
That's where you are

Should I try to rush or hold it back?
Why can't I stop thinking about you since that night
When you came up into my mind
And never left?

Truth is strange sometimes
And I can't help living with this contradiction
That is in front of me
I just can't let go

Should I ask or should I just wait for my turn?
I'm so afraid of this feeling
After long nights of crying against my pillow
It's here again.

Why do I always go the same way?
It's that smile that hypnotizes me
Whenever I see you...
Everyday... in my dreams... my reality