Rely on...

I can only rely on my tears
They're the only ones that maybe can console me
From feeling so unable to react
From feeling so out of control.

I cry my eyes out
And I can't seem to understand
Why should I feel like that
When nothing - absolutely nothing is my fault.

I just feel so guilty
I feel like I could have done more
I know that should, would, could are the words of a fool
But those are the only words I can cling to.

If I have no support
What will it be of me
Are these words really meaningful
Or do they just come back empty?

All I can do is work it out
Show the best I ever can do
And send all this haste and bitterness
To the fucking hell!